A bit discouraged

As mentioned in the previous entry, I coughed up some blood yesterday and through the night and even today, although it seems to be getting better here in the last hour or so (thank God and I hope it continues!).

 I usually am pretty strong about my health, and ultimately, I know that God is in control, but I told Garry today, in an emotional moment, that I’m ready to catch a break! It seems that I’ve been sick more often then not since probably Christmas-time and with not bouncing back as well as I normally do with this round of IVs, there are some tough, life changing decisions to be made that obviously effect not just me, but a lot of people. I have been praying for God to reveal His will & so now I have to decipher if this is what is happening.

I do want to share something that I thought was cool. Earlier today I was feeling pretty despondent & just threw a prayer request out there on facebook. I was humbled at the amount of people that responded and there may have been others that prayed, but weren’t comfortable stating so, & that’s OK too. What was cool, though, is I had this feeling of a weight being lifted off of my shoulders & I don’t remember ever having felt that before. My mom used to say that she would pray & pray until she felt the weight lifted off of her shoulders & now I understand what she meant. J

So, if you’re one of those people that have prayed for me or thought of me, I thank you from the bottom of my heart!